OH, NOOOOOOO!

DAY 6

OMG, it's piggie time. I ate too much yesterday, yeah -- 1475 calories is way more than I need when I have all this fat to live off -- It alone should keep me alive for years. And then I got on the scale this morning and found out I had GAINED 3.2 LBS since yesterday!

So for five days in a row, I lost, lost, lose -- the least in 1 day was .8 lbs. Then I get careless and practically wipe out a week' work! Yesterday, I had lost 4 lbs. -- Today I gained 3 back!

I'm telling myself it's just water weight, 'cos I know you can't gain 3 libs in a day. But it makes me feel so ashamed and so FAT!

So I wanted to lose 2 lbs today, so tomorrow, after week one, I would have still lost 3 lbs. this week. But today, my appetite has come back full force, and I keep eating and eating. It's those damn Zone bars -- they taste so good that instead of 1 for a meal, I ate 3 at a time! So that's it -- no more Zone bars for me. No more buying anything that tastes good.

Then to top it off, I could only do 1/2 hr.on the treadmill before getting too tired and quitting. What's the matter with me? I am so sabotaging myself!

I have to take some meds for chronic conditions I have, and a couple of them cause me to burn off weight more (No, not diet pille -- thyroid related), so I took a little extra today. Hope that helps. Now I'm chewing sugarles gum so I won't eat anything else today. I'm going to take my xanax (that I take nightly and when I'm anxious -- prescribed, guys!) at 9 tonight and just go to sleep early and hope for the best tomorrow.

I am so mad at myself.